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Lately I've been receiving a bunch of e-mails from people who thought that I'm someone named "Susan." It's kinda irritating at first, but it gets funnier. Everytime I open my inbox I'll get an update about Susan's life. How she used to attend some depression support group, at a mental health assosiation office or something. And now she's recovering from depression and is getting engaged. And she's gaining weight and looking healthier too bla bla bla. How depressing. I'm grateful that even though my life is mostly spent reading books and studying, at least there's someone how there whose life is even more pathetic than mine.LOL.

Latest worry about health...

Latest is...urmm, about some women stuff.
My mum told me that her office colleague had her uterus removed coz of fibroid. She wasn't able to have children since, but thankfully she already got 2.I've heard about a lot of women who've had their fibroids removed.
Immediate after hearing that, I immediately searched about fibroid on the Internet. The symptoms are abnormal vaginal bleeding, constipation, pain during sexual intercourse, excessive pain in the lower abdomen, frequent urination and infertility. Mostly it affects women between age 35-45. I wanna get married in my young age just to be safe(but I hope n pray it won't happen to me).
And since fertility also decreases with age, there's another reason to tie the knot early. And have lots of babies.
I searched for "prevention of fibroid" and guess what?There are no steps to be taken to prevent it, it happens coz of estrogen levels in the body or something. But there's a research that proves women who exercise have less chance of developing fibroids that women who don't.

I've just witnessed the grossest thing in my life

I don't think I can eat for next few days.
Today, Koko decided to be helpful and "cleaned" the toilet that my grandma and her maid are currently using.
Koko that little pest gathered a lump of hair on the toilet floor, brought them out into the kitchen, and try to EAT THEM.
Fortunately for her(unfortunately for me), I saw what was happening. And Mona managed to grabs those hairs before Koko can eat them. GROSS.

I'm feeling cheerful today!

This morning I woke up and the first thing I did was browse through all the fluid mechanics final papers that my bf gave to me(yes, I still couldn't get over the fact that I couldn't do my fluid final).
And guess what?
I can do almost all of the questions in the past year papers. There are some tricky ones, but I still have an idea how to start. MY final paper? I'm totally clueless when I look at the questions. I wonder why am I so unlucky? Why is it that when I took fluid mechanics, I have to take the tough final paper?? The worst part is, I asked my one of my classmates, and he said the paper was "OK." *SOB*SOB* The paper was NOT ok to me!
And then I showered,got dressed and decided to have my fringe trimmed. I've always wanted to go for the doll-style look. The hairdresser complimented me!!

Hairstylist: Waa...ni anak you hah? Putih haa...manyak cantik! Muka dia macam different sikit la!
Mum: Yeke?
Hairstylist:Ya laa...lain aa dari muka you!
Mum: You tengok muka dia macam siapa?
Hairstylist: Macam Jepun!
Mum: Saya memang ada keturunan Jepun.
Hairstylist: *Cupping my face in her hand* Cantik sangat la...you belajar tinggi2 lepas tu you kawin dengan anak datuk! Orang cantik macam you ni kena kawin dengan orang bagus2 maaa...
*I was beaming proudly*
Hairstylist: Mesti you banyak boyfriend kan!
Me: Takde la, satu je.
Hairstylist: *Laughing* Satu sajaaaa?? Tapi mesti ramai orang tengok you kan?
Me: Takde la.
Hairstylist: Haiiyaa,kalau sudah ada boyfriend tak boleh la cari anak datuk..
And then another hairstylist passed by, and she said something to my stylist in Mandarin, and the stylist told me again that I'm pretty. Heee...

Since then, I'm so smug and proud and kembang, I look into the mirror every 5 seconds.

She cut my fringe just above eye level (yeay!Now I can study more comfortably!). She said that since she cut my hair "ngam2", I have to see her more often and come back again in another 2 weeks. I don't mind though, coz the shop is near my house and she charged me RM2 only, and there's this one time I read Cleo and it says that fringe needs to be trim every 2 weeks so that it will look nice. She wanted to cut my fringe shorter, but I said no, and she agreed coz it will look weird. She suggest that I opt for a longish fringe first, and then gradually she'll make it shorter. Whatever. She even said that my layered hairstyle is out of shape, and needs to be trimmed. Urghhh...I just wanna hear the part when she said I'm pretty that's all!
Before I left, she said, "Muka you sudah cantik, cuma kena jaga badan nanti lepas kawin jangan bagi gemuk haa!" Then she reminded me again to marry a nice guy.LOL.

My blog isn't a place to write personal stuffs but I can't take it anymore

Who will hear about all my problems? Nobody.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR FINALS TO END. Really really can't wait. Coz my bf is NO FUN AT ALL when he's having exams.He's grumpier than ever, and when I try to be all funny and stuffs, he gets irritated and say back something nasty in return. It's like he's the only one in the world who's having exams.
Previously he's the one who's telling me not to be so stressed during tests, but now he's becoming more like the old me.
Important lesson learnt: don't text/call boyfriend when he's having exam.

It's really sad that I won't be able to enjoy university life. People say that schooldays/college life is the best time of your life. People who already have a career often feel like revisiting their schooldays/U days. I can see why. The people around me, they are so happy. They have a set of friends, a guarantee of company in class, always have people to laugh and gossip with, a certainty that they will always have groups for projects, for labs. I want to feel safe and secured like that. Not having to worry if I miss class and I will miss all the important announcements and stuffs. Not being alone while waiting for exam to start. It's good to have someone to talk to when you're nervous and all.
Well, I'm not like those perky "I'm-young-and-I-just-wanna-have-have-fun-in-college" types, and not like those career people who get misty-eyed wishing they could be students again. And I think it's sad that I'm actually RUSHING to finish off my course, when others are taking things slow and enjoying their young live. NO. I can't slow down. Time is running short. I want to finish my degree in another 4 sems. I want to graduate with my friends. I want to fulfill the agreement I made with PTPTN when I switched course, which is to complete my new course within 3 years.
I hope I won't regret "fast-forwarding" my university days. I have no intentions of going back to school, and I'm not saying "How I miss my schooldays" so I hope that once I work I won't miss my college days. But if given the chance to go back to school as my self RIGHT NOW, I would love to. I was such a loser back then. Now, after years of personal growth and development, I think I can handle school better.
And I think it's OK though, to be different from my peers. They might still want to enjoy their young life, but I have other plans. I just wanna feel secured with a degree in hand(though I doubt that it's enough to live a life of luxury, it's harder these days) and have a family and settle down. Yes, I'm old-fashioned.
Anyway I've just finished my fluid mechanics and Islamic final exams today. The Islamic paper was OK I guess but the fluid paper...urgghhh!!Speaking of exams, I remembered something. When I was sitting for my SPM, I brought, like, 20 or 30 pens with me(note:Mr.Bean). We couldn't bring our pencilcases in so I tied them all up with rubberband. I sat by the door, and every person that came in would point at my pens and laugh.

After two weeks(or is it three?) of being frugal.
Amount of money I've spent so far (since last week): RM39.75.
All on FOOD.
Well, I'd be lying if I say I no longer have any interests in shopping. I still feel the familiar longing when I see Stila's Creme Bouquet EDT...or the Coach bag. The only "window shopping" experience I can get now is by browsing through Benefit catalogues and the IStetan brochures sent to my house occassionally. Yeah,sad,I know.
Guys who freak out when their girlfriends shop a lot, just go date other guys.Haha.
Anyway, Mona my grandma's maid introduced me to Keropok Kerang and now I'm hooked to it! It's so addictive I can't stop eating it. "Macam makan nasi,"my mum said. But followed by work out session after that la. No way I'm putting on more weight. But seriously the keropok is YUMMY ok.

My dad's been discharged from the hospital...
...with a 20/20 vision.
He said it must be because of all the medications he had to take, or probably with all the x-rays and scans or something, now he doesn't need glasses anymore. He can see the ads on the trees outside my house without any vision aid, even I can't read those ads clearly though I was wearing glasses.
He had started driving too. Not with confidence though. He started by driving around our neighbourhood area, and he asked me to come along "just in case of emergency." But he did fine. Funny,coz last time I was the one who's driving and he sat in the passenger seat "just in case of emergency." Now it's the other way around.
Btw,why is it that the guys who asked me out are either fat or short or just plain ugly??

I've went through my wishlist and I realized that I don't need all of them.
1.Sunblock--the Vaseline body lotion is a better substitute, and it's only RM8 I think.
2.Cleansing milk--if the sample-sized one that I have now is finished, I can just use the Benefit's makeup remover.
3.Moisturizer--I'll just use the one I have now sparingly and if I run out of stock, I can always ask from my mum. She's part of the reason I'm doing this.
4.Happy--I don't need another perfume ;p

FROM NOW ON, I VOW NOT TO BE A SHOPAHOLIC ANYMORE

Today after I arrived home, my mum asked me about the Princess set in my room.She thought it's a gift from someone. She went ballistic when she found out that I bought it for RM245.I was like, err hello! It's like she doesn't know her own daughter. Well Mum, two facts about your daughter:
i)She loves shopping...a lot.
ii)And previously she had spent RM200 or more and you never make a big fuss out of it. What's the big deal now??
I was so stressed, with exams coming up and all, and her saying these things as soon as I got home. I wonder, why is it that everyone doesn't want me to have the Princess perfume? When I wanted to buy it, my bf also told me to delay. Coz he wants to give it as an anniversary present. So expensive stuffs are only for special occasion? You can't treat yourself to some luxuries sometimes?
A 50ml bottle cost RM200++ so a set with perfume+body scrub+lotion+keychain+bag+another small bottle of perfume which cost RM245 is definitely worth buying.
I think if everyone is having a problem with my shopping habits then I think I should probably change this. Besides, I'm sure my parents don't really like it if I spend their hard-earned money and my bf clearly isn't the window-shopping type, he gets tired and bored easily. This is a definitely a lesson for me. I'm going to make some improvements, control my spendings and things like that.
P/S:I've kept away the perfume in my closet drawer. So it will turn bad and rot over time. Let it be. I HATE the sight of it.

Aside from the arrow diagram thing, there's another proof of my stupidity.A few days ago, I wasted my money on empty toiletries bottles, hoping that I won't have to carry my big-bottled soaps and shampoos around. It seemed more convenient to carry them around in small bottles. I already had one bottle for my toner, shampoo and jars for scrub and Vaseline. The only thing that doesn't have a bottle is my cleanser.
I should have known that the Clinique soap is stored in a bottle WITH PUMP for a reason. The liquid is kinda viscous, so it's either you put it in a bottle with pump or a squeezable tube, but I bought a lotion bottle.
I was such a bimbo that I pumped out the very expensive cleanser into the lotion bottle. And then when I wanted to wash my face, THE SOAP WON'T COME OUT OF THE BOTTLE! It kinda sticked to the plastic wall of the bottle. Goshhh. I think I had pumped out A WEEK'S worth of cleanser. And it's not cheap ok!
Well, I couldn't pour the soap back into its original bottle, so I lamely washed off the soap out the lotion bottle. People say that money flows out like water.
Well, I've just discovered that its so true.

project management test 2

For the first time in my life as a CE student, I've finished a test feeling bummed, crushed, dissappointed, and sad. Feeling like a complete loser.
All the stuffs that I read about project management & construction...project initiation, estimating, development of work plan, budgeting...ALL the topics regarding the subject. And all that came out was precedence diagram and arrow diagram.
Seriously I'm dissappointed.
So project management is about drawing some arrow diagrams huh? Not about the scope-budget-schedule thingy?
The precedence diagram question was kinda OK but I got the last question wrong.
The arrow digram question was totally a killer. Confusing. If we were given more time, I think I can finish the whole thing, but we were given only 45 minutes. 45 minutes! I need at least 1 hour to finish one diagram.
So I handed in the paper with only a messy arrow diagram drawn. No backward/forward pass calculation, and of course no critical path shown on it. The test was only 2 questions, so if I messed up 1 question, you can imagine how much impact it is on my marks.
The test should be more balanced, ask a bit about the theoretical part, some definitions or what, not 100% calculation. The test is not balanced at all. Both the questions are from one chapter. And the time given was too short.
I'm on the verge of crying just THINKING about the test. I can't remember the last time I felt like this.

Stressed

I'm lonely.

Study not making any progress.

Notice that all the updates on my Twitter is mostly about study,tests,exams. I really need to get a life.

I'm counting the days til the end of this semester.

Coach

I'm supposed to be studying m.o.m lab, project management and fluid...but here I am blogging.
I want the gorgeous blue Starbucks water tumbler I saw at Great Eastern mall a few months back. Even though it cost RM52.I.Don't.Care.
I want the Coach patchwork bag too. Or the scribble bag. Or the striped legacy bag.At first I thought Coach are ugly, but now...Guess bags are still ugly though. Especially those with padlocks on it.
Everyone has a Coach. I want one.
I wanna cut my hair. Just layer it a bit at the side. Current state of my hair: dreadful.
Anyway, I've found one source of motivation to study:Sunway Pyramid! If I can finish most of the syllabus before Saturday, I can go to Pyramid. If no, then I'll just go home straight. No date :(
I wish I can let out everything I felt in this blog. I wish I can write a long, heartfelt entry about how nauseated,pissed off,annoyed I feel(but I'm not really good at these things).About how people are nice to you at one time, and the next thing you know they're treating you like crap. And then they're back to being nice again. It's like a cycle. I don't get these people. How you treat people depends on your mood? If you're down, you can just decide that you want to be rude and snappy and ignoring people? And if you're on cloud nine, you're supernice?
A short but very useful advice to all the girls out there: If your BFF shows no sign of quitting the university, then hang on to her! If she shows signs of leaving, quickly find a new BFF! I've gone through 3 sems in university without a BFF and you know what? IT SUCKS. I've met lots of people, some are nice, some aren't. Like the people I've just mentioned.These people act as if they're the only ones who's stressed, with problems. Well, other people aren't as happy with their lives as you think they are.
There's a Japanese proverb that says: Be kind, for others you meet are fighting a harder battle.
So be nice people!!

3 Wishes

1.For my dad's speedy recovery
My dad's been hospitalize 3 times now. 1st-operation to remove growth near his appendix, 2nd is due to post-surgical complications(evil grandma force-fed him some dirty fish) and the 3rd time is to remove stones in his gallbladder.
I'm so sick of:
1)Staying under the same roof with evil grandma
2)Eating the same type of food in rotation (I want my mommy's spaghetti!)
3)Eating leftovers
4)Having to entertain guests and phonecalls from annoying relatives
5)Going to the hospital (seriously now coe building is more appealing to me, compared to ampang puteri hosp)
6)Doing house work AND having to study at the same time

2.To get rid of pimples on my face

3.To have all the things in my wishlist (refer to older post)

Updates, updates

I've just discovered Twitter and I'm kinda hooked to it.
Try restraining myself from posting 20 updates in one day. Haha. So far only 3 updates, so OK la.
I got 5 tests coming up.And worst part is, my face kinda look like a pizza now. Going back in time to my teenage years again. Pimples!

Princess!

To escape from living under the same roof with my evil grandma and having to entertain all her guests, so I went to Uniten today to register for special sem. And then went to Sunway Pyramid to buy birthday pressies for my mum. One thing about me is that I suck when it comes to giving presents. Usually I will give the randomest, commonest, most boring gifts ever.
Decided to buy her shower gel and handcream from Marks & Spencer. Thought of buying her a handwash, but sometimes I use her bathroom and she'll accuse me of buying the present for my own good.Hah! But I never use her shower gel,so I figure it'll make a good gift and she can always use a handcream too. But anyway, it's still considered as terrible gifts...shower gel and hand cream?? :p
Bought my dad a get well soon card and the M&S Harvard talc which he loves so much (so that he won't feel down when I give my mum pressies and he's miserably lying on the bed). Huge mistake. Went home to find out that he still has a bottle of Harvard talc, still half full.
Anyway, the highlight of today is I already got my Princess perfume! Yipee! Not just the perfume, but also with body lotion, body polish, keychain and bag. The whole set cost RM 245, which I think is definitely worth buying coz the perfume itself is RM223. And my hubby was kind enough to contribute RM45(coz at first I sulked like a 5-year-old coz I wanted the perfume so badly but he told me to wait til anniversary) Hihi, thanks dear!However, the salesperson there was reluctant to sell it off, I guess he/she wants it.Hehe.Well,too bad.It's mine now!It smells soo good I luv it!
My aunt and her husband slept over at my house tonight. As I'm typing this, my computer clock shows 10.16pm and I haven't studied a single thing. My aunt just couldn't stop yakking. Complaining about how she couldn't pay her bills now coz my dad's sick(what a user!), complaining about her husband, about money(money is always an issue in my paternal family),and she asked me what I wanna do with my life. I said I'm kinda bored with my life, in school, I wish that SPM would be over real fast so that I can get into university like everyone else, and in university, I wish that I can graduate as soon as I can and start working.
Then she said, "When you work, what do you wish for? Get a husband?"
Oh,here we go again. The boyfriend-husband issue.
I said I'm not interested in looking for a husband (which is true coz I already found my soulmate).
I guess I must have sound like a miserable, pathetic, desperate singleton coz she started to comfort me, "It's OK, you'll find someone perfect for you."
I was like,yeah OK whatever.
She asked, "You don't have any admirers at the place where you study?"
I said no,no one fancies me.
She didn't look pleased with my answer so I said, "The guys who like me are either fat or just plain ugly. I don't like them."
She laughed like a hyena hearing my answer. She even suggested that I find cool jobs where I can work overseas. I said that even if I can't find an overseas job, I can always find a husband who works abroad.